My roommate almost just kicked me in the face!

since we bunked our beds, Ellary has said she wants to jump up onto the top bunk instead of climbing up. She just tried...twice, both times epic failures. It was very amusing, however.

So for dinner tonight we did take-out Chinese. For one, the cafeteria was JAM-PACKED. For second, they close super early! And thirdly...I'd take Chinese over cafeteria food anyday. Plenty of leftovers. :)

Today was our second day of classes...I am one of the fortunate ones who only had two classes in all over these last few days. My roommate, on the other hand, had all of hers, so she is stressing out over homework whereas I will probably be at that point next week. It's sorta funny, though, to see all the freshmen freaking out about homework, all the upperclassmen telling them that it will become more natural as time goes on, and they still freak out. Haha, I love having experience this already...

Tonight Ellary asked me how I am doing with my parents being gone and stuff. It's really hard, but in a different way than other freshmen might be feeling. Since I've already been away from my family for the length of a semester I think I've gone through that initial separation stuff. But it's still hard...I am ready to move on, but that doesn't make it easier.

Spiritual stuff. We had our first chapel service on Wednesday. The speaker (one of my professors) gave an absolutely amazing message. She talked about how Abraham did not just hold to God His promises, expecting Him to keep to them and that is all he got out of his relationship from God. He loved the presence of God more than the promises of God. And I was like: oh my word. I have been repeating to myself, "He is faithful. He promised this will be a good year. I am going to trust Him." Yet never once have I thought, "Enjoy God in this place." So I needed to hear that, and God served it up.

if you would like to pray for me, please pray that I would remain faithful in engaging in community with Him. I have promised my life to Him, so I need to follow through with that.
also please pray that God would bring the people into my life that I can bless in some way, but that I would also be open to being loved by others.
and also please pray that I would not despair but find joy in the morning.

:)
from my heart.

I am not a prayer warrior.

But I want to be.

The only thing stopping me is laziness. Probably some other little things, but mostly laziness. Oh, and lack of faith.

I think I am just lazy with my thinking in general. Sometimes I have some really profound, awesome thoughts. But, at least for me, directing my mind to come up with such thoughts (or even just think through stuff in an orderly fashion) takes some work.

Is that what it's like for you?

Haha, just some random thoughts from ME. :)

December 2

I was always bad at thinking of titles. I usually come up with something random like song lyrics or a quote...I don't know how to sum up all the muddled-ness in my head into one Title!

So my last day of classes is December 13. Unfortunately I have a big chemistry final that day. Otherwise I finish everything else scary the week before. Once I am done on that Monday I am thoroughly determined to celebrate! I am just imaginging how I am going to use my days once I am done with school. Oh bliss...

Last night I couldn't sleep. And it wasn't one of those nights where you just can't fall asleep. I couldn't fall asleep because I had a million thoughts whirling around in my head and they all seemed to be pressing against my skull. Tons of worries and issues and I knew I'd never get to sleep. So I grabbed my blankie and went into my parents room. My dad is a pretty light sleeper so I thought that if I whispered "Daaaaad" a few times he would wake up. It was my mom who muttered a groggy, "What?". Then I asked for them to pray for me. They did (of course I cried) and then they let me lay down right in between them. Which was awesome because I haven't done that for over a decade, but after a while it got really hot so I went back to my bed. It was just so amazing to have them understand and love me enough to pray for me at midnight!

One of my big worries was about a French test today. Originally I had a C overall grade in the class. I was so freaked out because I need a C or higher to graduate, and I knew that if I bombed the test and got lower than a C and then got a really low overall grade...well I didn't know what would happen! I wouldn't be able to graduate in December. So it really was one of those tests that would make or break...my whole future. O_O Anyways, I got an 86!! WHOOT! Who says God doesn't answer prayer?? I say "Ha!" in their faces!

Needless to say, there are so many other things that are weighing on my mind. Uuuuuugh...I don't even want to deal with it all. I wish I had a machine that had a sign on it "QUESTIONS" and everyday you could ask any question and get God's answer back.

Oh and thanks to all (2 of you! lame!) who told me which actor your dream spouse would resemble! Yours is cute, Ame! And Madds, he is quite handsome. :) Mine is (dun dun dun dun):

Josh Harnett. :) Yes...anywho.

I watched the movie The Company the other day. It pretty much follows the life of a ballet dancer in a Chicago ballet company. I love dance but not enough to live the kind of life she did...insane. And I really want to see 127 Hours! Not only does it look good but I looooove James Franco. We'll see. Right now Voyage of the Dawn Treader is top on my list. And also Tangled looks so good! Maybe that is how I will go celebrate.